I gulped, biting my lower lip.  Finally, I shook my head.  "No." I whispered hoarsely, getting up quickly, only to find that my clothes had been cleaned and replaced and my hands were not longer bound.  
I stared at my hands for a moment, feeling more tears rise to my eyes.  Without looking at anyone, I whispered "I have to go think." I smiled softly at the ground, then promptly rushed from the house.  I heard my name called faintly, but I didn't look behind me, nor recognised the tone.

I stuck my hands in my pockets as I strolled down the sidewalk, ignoring the tears that rolled down my cheeks.
Last night... well... it was amazing!  It had to have been the best experience I'd ever had!  It felt like, whoever was on top of me, we bonded somehow!  That it's never going to feel right to be with anyone besides them!

Thing is, I didn't know who it was!  How could I know who I WASN'T supposed to be with if I didn't even know who I was supposed to!  It was just so confu--
HEY!

I grinned stopped suddenly and wiping at my face.  Now I knew what I had to do!  It was the PERFECT idea!  I ran back to my house.  I had to rest, first, then I had to talk to a few people.

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I paced in front of my family, my eyes narrowed.  My older brother had his arms cross and a look of annoyance on his face and my parents both looked worried out of their minds.  My sister, though... she was looking smug as hell.  I stopped in front of them, taking in a deep breath.  My mother beat me to the actual speaking.

"You've got an STD." she answered, looking anxious.
"What?!" I asked.
"You married a prostitute on accident!" my dad threw out, looking furious.
"No!  I--" I exclaimed.
"You're going to juvy!
"You've been kicked out of school!"
"You're going to die in a week!"
"You're--"
"You're gay."

Everyone shut up, even me with my persisting.  My father looking between Fi and I.  "WHAT?!" he exclaimed, looking furious... again.  My mother started to cry.  "Uh... yeah.  That's the one." I muttered.  "GROSS!" my brother cried out, looking disgusted.  I pursed my lips, letting my family hash me as much as they wanted.

"I thought we raised you right!  I thought I was being a GOOD mother!"
"No son of MINE is going to be a sissy homo!  You're lying!  That's all!  It's a joke!"
"YOU SICK FUCK!" I blinked as my brother lunged at me, tackling me to the ground and punching me repeatedly.  "ANGY!" I heard Fi scream and suddenly, the older male was knocked off me.  I slowly sat up, wiping at my bloody mouth.  Fi was beating the shit out of Angy, screaming at him about his narrow-mindedness and how he just needs to shut the fuck up every now and again.  When she finally stood up, his face was red and bloodied.  He glared at her as she helped me to my feet, rubbing my shoulder comfortingly.  "If you guys are going to be the complete pricks you are, then at least shut your big mouths!"

And with that, she lead me out the door, sitting my on the steps.  "You have people you can stay with for a little while?" she asked me softly, hugging me to her chest.  I nodded.  "Okay."
She smiled at me, taking in a deep breath.  "What led to this sudden burst of bravery?  I mean, you just told our entirely homophobic family you're gay!" she smiled at me.  I shrugged.  "I think I'm in love."

She blinked, gaping at me.  I nodded.  "Oh!  Well... that's AWESOME!" she exclaimed, shaking my shoulders in excitement.  I gave her a half-hearted smile.  "With who?" she asked excitedly.  I shrugged.  "I don't know." I said simply.  She blinked.  "How can you know if you're in love if you don't even know who you're in love with?!" she asked, giggling softly, confusion in the giggle.  I shrugged again.  "I just... do!"

She sighed softly, patting my back and helping me up.  I stopped her from going inside and told her the entire story of the party.  She listened intently, looking entranced.  When I finished, she blinked, gasping.  "Well, you better go find out!  That's a great plan!  It should work perfectly!"
"You think so?" I asked with a smile.  She nodded.  "Go!  See if their still there!"

With that, I was off!


I ran for a while, and when I finally saw Priss' house, my bravery had subsided dangerously.  Before I could change my mind, though, the door swung open and Priss stomped out, pulling me in.  "He's freaking OUT, Sile!  Now come back and figure this out!"

I blinked, following him eagerly.  My three "candidates" were sitting on the couch, all looking rather anxious, but then, so was everyone else!  I bit my lip.  "Can I go ahead and try and figure this out?" I asked with an eager look.  Priss nodded, pushing me towards them.  All three boys looking over their shoulders, small smiles on their faces.  I took a deep breath.  "It'll take me a second to figure it out." I said softly, they all nodded.  I leaned down to Hype, taking his chin between my fingers and kissing him sweetly on the lips.  It felt... GREAT!  The best kiss I'd ever given OR revieved!  I felt a certain passion flowing through us through out lips.

Finally, I pulled away, though, which caused him to whimper in confusion.  I then moved to Temper, smiling at him.  Temper, though, lunged at me, pressing out lips together in a sloppy, horrible feeling kiss.  I quickly pulled away, giving him a weird look before moving on to Calm who was giving me a scared sort of look.  I leaned down, softly kissing him as well.  He kissed back nicely, our lips moving together beautifully.  There was something missing, though.  I pulled away, biting my lower lip.  "I... can't tell yet." I muttered.  I heard a few sighs of impatience.  I gestured for both Calm and Hype to stand up, telling Temper softly that he simply wasn't it.  He smiled at me sadly, standing up and sulking to the rest of the group.

I turned to Hype, softly embracing him in a intimate way.  He hugged back, pressing his face against my neck, kissing it sweetly.  He... he fit!  I didn't let go, this time, just held him to me, squeezing my eyes shut and laughing softly as I pressed my mouth against his clothed shoulder.  "It's you, isn't it?" I whispered.  I heard him laugh in relief.  "Yes!" he gasped, pulling away.  "Yes!  I love you, Sile.  I have ever since I met you." he hugged me again, pressing his lips against mine in a way of thanks.  I heard claps behind us and I swiftly turned around, blinking at the happy faces.  Even Calm was grinning and squealing in happiness.  "Good job, Sile." Lee said, smiling wide.  I nodded, holding my smaller friend against my side.  Now... my boyfriend, I suppose.

Boyfriend.  That sounded... nice.  I grinned, nuzzling the side of Hype's head.  "Love you, baby." I whispered.  He grinned.  "Love you too, hon." he returned, pecking my lips.

Later that night, while staying at Hype's house, as we moaned and groaned and moved with each other beautifully, just like the first time, that we invented a new bro-hug.